It looks as if the supplements are working. So far. Does that mean we’re now ready to begin trying again? November is not a good month for that, just like June/July isn’t a good time. Too many memories. I wonder if those months will ever pass without me thinking about what happened, what could have been? I can’t imagine those times going by without at least a passing thought. Or many.
I can’t help thinking that by all rights we should have a nearly three month old by now. And I am almost ready to give up and be happy with our family as it is. Almost, but not quite. Someone is missing. I wonder if someone will always be missing. It’s a case of the fear of what could go wrong, is it stronger than the desire. Right now it’s balanced like a seesaw, fear/desire.
Yes, well then.
It’s been a quiet weekend, the calm before the storm I suppose. Tomorrow I have to clean out the fridge, for there will be much food stored within. And finalize the shopping list. And make sure someway we get mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. Because jeepers I’m thinking that 4 pies, a 15 lb turkey, dressing,cranberry sauce, rolls,brown sugar carrots, and sweet potato souffle might just be enough for one person. As long as *somebody* brings the wine I should be OK though :-).
I think I”m probably repeating myself, no I know I am. I think I’ll finish watching Dogma and enjoy my own personal joke that I have a Siamese cat named Bartleby.
A Siamese cat that doesn’t talk much. You know, Bartleby the Scrivener says very little and Bartleby on Dogma talks a lot. And I have a Siamese cat that is supposed to talk a lot who doesn’t. Ha ha.oh well.
I would have a seven-month-old by now. It is so weird isn’t it? I know what you mean about the family not being complete. I feel like it’s missing a couple people, which seems like so much to ask for in the face of where I am.