Not much of a thought tonight because the Bean has come down with a very sad stomach ache. The kind which makes what comes out of her very surprising and upsetting. The kind that requires two baths. I’ve been singing songs and rocking her then laying down with her and …
That’s what James calls mittelschmerz. Of which I have a bad case today. And it’s a mixed blessing, this pain in my right side. At least I know something is going on. That is a good sign. But it also scares me and forces our hand. We do want another …
Argh. I’ve spent the last um, two hours trying to find out how to embed a flickr slide show in this wordpress blog. No dice. So, I’ll post a picture here and and you can go look at the others here: Eureka Springs Trip It wasn’t an easy trip, since …
So, the Bean has recovered from her weird fever, which according to her teacher has been going around. Nothing else–no sniffles, no coughing just intermittent bouts of high fever forcing you to throw (gently place) your child into a lukewarm bathtub whilst hiding your hyperventilation. I have to consciously do …
Well shoot, the ning nablopomo doesn’t work on this wordpress blog. So imagine the little badge here that says..ok I’m doing Nablopomo, cause I am. So today begins Nablopomo and I’m not ready for it. I/we haven’t slowed down for over a week. We had our giant Halloween party on …
So 7years ago today we were getting ready to get married. Things were very very different then. We lived in San Francisco. We still had Newg and Ninny though Hotspur was no longer with us. Even the human friendships were different then than they are now, though many we still …
I keep trying to hold it together, to make sure everyone is taken care of, to find the good, but really it’s been too much. It’s been relentless, and there are times it gets to be too much. And while we are lucky to have good friends around us and …
Today is pregnancy and infant loss rememberence day. http://www.october15th.com/ Hey C, I’m thinking of you. And I’m thinking of what could have been for both our families. Technorati : miscarriage, pregnancy
This is a test to see if the new Zoundry client is any more user friendly than the W.blogger. So far the media repository setup has been a freakin bust, but the rest of it is good. Now, let us see if this works.
Heh, where is the music setting on this new client. Can’t find it, so I’ll just post I’m having an Annie Lennox, Nick Cave, Jane Siberry, Dead can Dance moment. I’m pulling it all into my library and listening to things I haven’t in awhile. Dead can Dance used to …
and then I suddenly just cry because I miss the little blue lady. I keep seeing her everywhere. Making note of her insulin shot times and to close the door to keep her away from dry food. I keep expecting to hear her click across the floor(old lady claws). I …
December 4th 1989 – October 1st 2007 XCVII EACH that we lose takes part of us; A crescent still abides, Which like the moon, some turbid night, Is summoned by the tides. ~Emily Dickinson XXXVI I LOST a world the other day. Has anybody found? You ll know it by …
We tell each other who we were. Who we wanted to be. The ferocity, the grace and remind each other that who we are now should be, and is a better version of who we were.
The little girl was mean to the Bean again. “I only play with short haired girls,” then played with long haired and short haired girls, just not the Bean. Emily didn’t understand. “Why are some people mean mommy?’ And all I could say was “Because there just are mean people …
I didn’t write on the day or after. I did hear from a good friend (I won’t link her here unless she says ok, that pesky secondary infertility can well, suck)around about the date. No one else remembered except for her. Thak you C. Thank you. That’s more than I …
Hmm, yeah the entire recovering from massive oral surgery was way harder than we thought it would be. Seriously–I figured on four days max, but it ended up being two weeks. Then I got bronchitus. Then I got a cold. So did everyone else. I still can’t eat anything crunchy, …
if it weren’t so funny It would be quite the tragedy. Oh wait, it kinda is. Emily has the beginnings of pneumonia!?! And Thrush?!?! She’s on three medicines. She’s pretty damn cheerful but can’t stop coughing. How did this happen so fast? She had a little cough when I went …
I’m about to have lots of surgery on my gums and the bones in my mouth. And some other possible surgery or at least poking about in other places I’d rather not talk about. I’m going to be laid up for a couple of weeks quite possibly. It’s going to …