H, being Hypodynamia

I am experiencing a loss of strength in several places in my life.  This is a word you can use literally, to mean what is basically the disease of modern life-being sedentary.

Or you can use it more metaphorically.

Yep that is happening. It started when I dislocated my ankle. I’ve only begun to fix that.

I need to go on walks more, to strengthen my back and ankle–but when?  I can’t go in the morning. I’m up at 5 as it is.

I’d like to swim too, to do both. I need to figure out when. It has to be after work.  It would have to be Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Friday-Sunday.

Good, I’ve figured out when. Now I just need to get off my butt again.

I am losing strength when it comes to how I’ve been eating. And the culprit surprisingly isn’t bread or cake as I thought it would be. But sugar.

I need to just stop again. Just stop. But it seemed like it was easier before.

I’m sad so I’m medicating with chocolate, honestly. It sounds dumb but it really is that.

I am losing strength at keeping up our house.

We’ve talked about our 45 minutes to an hour of chores every night- and some nights we all do that, but some nights, most nights, we’re so tired it’s all we can do to get homework, kumon math, a few things picked up and dinner made.

I am losing strength at cooking

I was doing so well at that too. But it is the being tired. J has had to cook more and more and it isn’t fair.

What is causing all this?

Three things (possibly 4)

1.Eating too much sugar

2. Not getting enough exercise

3. It is quite possible I’ve yet again taken the wrong job.

I haven’t yet decided if I went from fire to frying pan or from fire to fire. I do know it is not what it is supposed to be. I don’t know yet if it is worth it to try to make it better. It is better than it was, but I’m already burnt out from working for the public school system and how wacky that was. I’m not sure I have the reserves to get through what I’m going through there right now. I don’t yet know how much I can say.

4. the possible health issue I have is…well I just have to find time to get to a doctor and find out what is going on.

So what am I going to do about it? Well I can try to go for a walk tomorrow, except we need to get the bad news about our taxes. Ok, Wednesday is soon enough. Wednesday and Friday this week I will walk. Saturday I will call and find out when I can swim.

And I’ll find a specialist this week. Yes, I will. Because I need to know what is going on, I can’t deny it any longer.

And I’ll step away from all that candy the easter bunny pooped out as the cats chased him around the house. Poor guy–chocolate eggs and jellybeans were strewn everywhere and 3/5ths of the cats were breathing heavy that morning.