I pretended to be somebody I wanted to be until finally I became that person. Or he became me. Cary Grant

DECEMBER 11 – 11 THINGS

What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?

(Author: Sam Davidson)

What if my life doesn’t have 11 things? Let’s see if it does.

My life doesn’t need to be so insular. I would like to be more a part of the community. I’d like to see if I can get on the animal advisory board for the area. I am getting more human interaction with the community (I used to volunteer at the animal shelter, which is why I qualify this) at work with the students and teachers, so I’m headed the right direction.

My life doesn’t need clutter. I usually purge a few times a year, but I need to purge some books (argh—how HOW do you do that?) And some clothes that really—really have been worn quite enough. I am working on that now. If I see something has a stain that I know won’t come out I get rid of it right then, instead of washing it ‘one more time’. Because it contributes to that feeling I’ve always had that everyone else is more pulled together than I am. Yes that’s a loaded statement, no I’m not going to explore that one yet.

I’d like to eliminate my dislike of being in pictures. I’d like to but probably won’t. It’s a lifelong thing. But it does make for me to seemingly be absent from the image chronicle of my own life.

I’d like to eliminate my hurt feelings from being left out of things. Obviously we didn’t work out as friends—they aren’t comfortable with me and I’m not with them, well some of them.

I’d like to eliminate the residual anger I have at some betrayals/breakups of the past. How? Meditation maybe. Certainly more time and perspective.

I’d like to eliminate some weight. I know the way to do this is eat better and exercise, which I will when I can bloody well WALK on my own again.

Credit card debt BE GONE. It will be in a few months.

My angst over what happened in the M.A.T. program. I’m still so angry at a couple of those professors. That’s just going to take putting more time between me and it.

Lack of writing—how to get rid of that? Write!

Could I count extra kitchen things that I don’t know how to use and will probably never learn how to use –like springform pans? Honestly I like cooking now, but let’s just admit some stuff is beyond me.

Not being a joiner. We have been saying yes to more stuff that takes us out of our comfort zone. Water skiing, dinner with parents of beanfriends , um….ok we’re trying. I/we (because it is a marital thing, J and I are both like this) are putting ourselves out there more and just trying things. It’s good for all of us. I’m tired of seeing people when it’s a party situation, I want to DO things with them.

I think I kind of cheated. Number 11 is like number 1 and number 10 is like number 2. Heh Maybe that means I should (continue to) work on those first.

Looks like a lot of change, but then that’s what life is. A lot of change. However much I might wish it weren’t, however much I fight it, it keeps changing. As long as I do I won’t dry up and blow away from my own life. At least that is my theory today. I’ll keep pretending to be Cary Grant.