There are many ways of going forward, but only one way of standing still. Franklin D. Roosevelt

Well I disappeared for awhile and fell off the Reverb wagon because—that time of year I think. Also family drama. 

Kat McNally asks about the way forward  and Project Reverb wants to know about gratitude.

Since I’m behind and back dating this. I’m going to be succinct.

I am grateful for my daughter and husband. I am grateful that we have found a good school for her and a new job for me. I haven’t spent a lot of time being grateful this year because of the (new) challenges for my husband’s health and because this has been an absolutely horrible year. 

Which leads me to the way forward.

I’m going to try and post a gratitude post once a week. I’m going to try and I think it will be possible since things are looking better on some fronts.

I’m starting to swim I think on the 30th . I  was so stressed and disheartened this year I gave up caring about cooking  and working out—even though both those things are good for me and for the family. 

I’m going to learn from my mistakes—somehow, some way I’m going to learn.

I’m going to stop returning to the source of cruelty for  validation in all areas of my life.  That ship has sailed, returned to port, sailed again, come back into port and sailed with same crew and then rinsed and repeated.  I’ve done everything I can and while not perfect it is time to stop. Could I have done some things better? Sure.   But I’ve been down this road so many times I’ve worn a groove. How’s that for mixed metaphors?

And finally and most importantly, I’m going to make sure that Mr. J gets taken care of. He’s going to come through this just fine and with his loving family behind and surrounding him. 

We are all going to get and do better in 2014.