When I stand before thee at the day’s end, thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healing. Rabindranath Tagore

December 19 – Healing

What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?

(Author: Leonie Allan)

I don’t know that I healed from much. Some of my scars are as healed as they get.  I’ll always have nightmares, that’s the nature of that beast.

Some are newly formed—I’m waiting to see if next year reopens them or …

I guess…and I don’t have it in me to say much more than this: I know a few folks who are having kids or have recently had them and when I think about them I’m not filled with

with that horrifying rage that has filled me the last few years. Rage that they can and I can’t.

Or can’t one more time.

Don’t offer me perspective. I know what perspective I ought to take, I just haven’t gotten there quite yet.