Well, where is my mind.
My mind is on leaving my current job and going to my next one. I can’t say that I’ve got my head in the #reverb11 #resound11 etc game. I wish I did. I wanted too.
There are just so many places to visit to find the people doing this challenge that my libra self is overwhelmed.
I’m also just so sad to leave my current job. Don’t get me wrong, this is the right decision. This will be me doing more of what I like to do and not fighting a lot of uphill battles. The new crew looks great and I’ve heard what a nice environment it is. I’m really REALLY looking forward to it.
That doesn’t mean I’m not sad. I’ve worked with some amazing teachers and principals. I’ve had a couple of really great bosses. I’ve gotten to know some incredible techs and some really kind and dedicated people. But it was time to go.
There were things. I don’t even know how much I could or should say. Things that just didn’t work for me anymore. The old writing on the wall thing.
I’m in a between place right now and all my soul searching energy has gone into making this decision. Do I stay and keep trying or do I say “ok, I’ve done my very best and while it helped, it wasn’t what was needed at this time, time to cut my losses†or do I remain and keep pushing? It was time. Time to go.
And the thing is I’ve learned a lot. I have learned that I was and am good with people. That I like being around people, helping them and to quote the paclids, “making things go.†I have learned how much I prize civility and structure. I’ve learned that I didn’t lose my brain during that time spent being Mommy.
So I’m looking toward the next thing. And while I still have one foot in the past and one stepping forward, feeling like I’m half in and half out of the tardis—well I guess I just haven’t had lots to say other than that. And how many times can you say that?
