So I had an episode the other day or month. I’ve been meaning to blog again for awhile but the new jorb and the tension with proving myself all over again got in the way. Before that it was just coming down from the job I had before. I was …
I’ve had an intense week of interviews and I have choices to make. I kinda had a mini meltdown this weekend, where everything I’ve been considering, all the changes I’m looking at hit me. And I was stunned? angry? worried? excited? relieved? I don’t know all five? It takes quite …
What is it about November? I can barely stand to read over the previous year’s entries. I’ve been doing Nablopomo since the beginning and it seems each November there is some enormous decision, or some huge situation that demands attention. Inn 2006 things got crazy in the Bean’s preschool and …
Sometimes there are moments there are songs. Things that make you feel something. And you hear a song. It’s odd how much that song encapsulates everything that you were and everything that you are in your secret heart. I got together with two friends that hadn’t seen each other in …
OH damn. Damn damn damn. This is the wish. I wish I felt like I did during college or grad school, or perhaps even my first job, when I just knew I was marking time until it got good. And it did, get good that is. I had some amazing …
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As happens every year, I’ve got a sinus problem. It went from 75 degrees to 40 literally over night and the whole family was plunged into various types of illness. This year has been the year of stomach problems as much as last year was the one of respiratory ones. …
Well I’m showing up once more. I’ll do this experiment (and lather rinse repeat) of beginning to write and finding what comes out. To get back in the habit of writing. It’s been a rough day. I accomplished a few things, had some difficulties and battled either an allergy or …
Oh I’m taking a break from the Halloween Countdown—and I’ve had to because it was yet another exhausting week at work. I hope THAT gets better soon. I can’t decide if I love it or not. I know I don’t like office politics. But I love the work, I love …
Well it is about birthday time. And about time for me to have the mopes. These are both reasonable and not. Why are they—well I had a  ….a childhood. So each year on my birthday I remember things you might see on a made for TV movie. And wonder just …
I couldn’t hear the song from Sweeny Todd ‘nothing’s gonna harm you†It made me sick to my stomach in a few years I’ll tell you all why but I can’t now.
What is it that makes us grow up. What if we never do. What if we like the same things we liked and what if we don’t? What if we wish we could do it all over and what if we don’t? Why would we spend the late late night …
So some of the crazy girl shit has started. One girl lies about something my daughter said (but she didn’t) to another girl and then they tell another and suddenly she’s ganged up on. Or instead of saying oops a girl blames the Bean for her mistake. And how about …
Well then, I almost forgot to write this. I guess I should do it before think about it too much to make any sense. I was thinking and talking tonight to my friend L about how friendships change. And this is probably a deeper subject than I’m capable of dealing …
I’m in a place where I’m very tired. I’m hoping to come out of that place soon. I feel like I’ve got more to do than time and that I just want to stop doing everything for about a week, or a month. It feels like I’m swimming through soup, …
I have eleventy blog posts in the back of my mind but I haven’t had time or energy to get to them. the last 30 days of the school year (not say the month of may—school is going into June this year). We’re all burnt, we’re all tired. I have …
And here comes the buckshot entry. By that I mean all over the place and watch out what it hits. Work has been rough. I hope it is getting better. It really has to get better. I’m lucky I have a great boss, great teachers, great principals. And I …
