It’s not what it looks like

It’s not what it looks like

I keep trying to hold it together, to make sure everyone is taken care of, to find the good, but really it’s been too much. It’s been relentless, and there are times it gets to be too much.

And while we are lucky to have good friends around us and their care is the best safety net I’ve had in years, even so I end up alone with this collection of sorrows because that is the nature of this beast. A solitary and vicious nature.

I’m not even sure what relief looks like. I wish I weren’t so tired and that the next few bad things just wouldn’t happen, not for awhile, please not for awhile.